| I know i said i was done with this but whatever im pissed! |
[Jul. 15th, 2006|02:22 pm] |
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| | spiderman | ] |
I hate people who are such pieces of shit that they think they are amazing. They talk about things they know nothing about, call those Andy and I love fools for being in the army and serving our country and doing what they love, telling me to shut up and get away when im sticking up for my boyfriend in front of HIS house and telling him to go home so theres no physical fight! Who is jobless, 26 a burnout drug addict with no brain, trying to get my boyfriend even more pissed by saying things that make no sense but they are both drunk so they misinterpret it and get more pissed... Im so mad right now, i almost punched the kid but jeff stopped everything which is kinda funny cause jeff is usually there with andy in the anger category against shitty people.
I know im ranting but if u were there with me last night you would want to kill this kid too! Andy was still pissed this morning... well 1:30pm cause this didnt end until 3 am and i didnt even get to get drunk cause i was too busy holding andy back because hes worked so hard to get where he is and i dont want him to loose it all for this filthy scumbag whos 26 years old.
UGH I REALLY HATE PEOPLE!! (no offence to those of my friends reading this cause i dont hate you in particular) |
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[Jan. 9th, 2005|05:53 pm] |
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| | black market medallions | ] |
I have come to the conclusion that i will no longer be posting in livejournal. ill probly read some entries and such because its really the only way i know anything that is going on with anyone because of school and lack of phone calls and other friend contact.
this is me, signing out |
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| ugh |
[Jan. 8th, 2005|08:45 pm] |
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Yea saturday night with nothing to do
at least i have good news...
who is the new owner of a dark grey 93 ford taurus station wagon you might ask?
that would happen to be me.
yes that is right... shagon wagon here i go
i move back in school tomorrow, thank god, at least ill have something to do
ta ta |
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[Dec. 14th, 2004|01:08 am] |
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And pooks thinks shes the only one left out. hun i feel your pain. |
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| My Xmas card to all! |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|12:23 pm] |
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| |  accomplished | ] |
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| | bikini kill | ] |
Well everyone:
Merry Christmas to all..
and to all...
GROW THE FUCK UP!
Its sad when no one will carry on a tradition or enjoy the holiday spirit because they dont get along with someone else and for no legitimate reason either. So what you had some sort of tif like a year ago! who gives a shit anymore, its sad we are out of high school and everyones still acting like we are in middle school.
i love you all, you treat me well, but this is rediculous
blais and i will have our own xmas party, no drama, and tons of fun, if anyone wants to join us, let us know |
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| no more classes! |
[Dec. 10th, 2004|01:26 am] |
Yea so my cell phone is all of a sudden turned off and i cant call or recieve calls from anyone... i dont know why. thought i would post this to let yall know but no one here really calls me anyway so whats the point.
blais why is the party canceled? |
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| o dear |
[Dec. 4th, 2004|04:22 am] |
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| |  awake | ] |
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| | pink floyd the wall | ] |
Well i somehow manage to get myself into predicaments and i dont know how
i just got hardcore hit on by a boy that is cousins with the boy next door who is being drafted for baseball from Umass Amherst and he was pretty into gettin me and i just couldnt have any of it..
o dear... how does this happen
i should just go to bed, but he keeps knockin on my door |
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[Dec. 4th, 2004|03:32 am] |
Somehow i have managed to destroy three of my knuckles today and it could easily have been avoided....
my roommates asleep so i should probly go now
damn my roommate and her retarded lazy/i dont agree withness
i wish i was drunker than i am... one liter of vodka and im fine
DAMN tolerance |
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| im bored |
[Nov. 30th, 2004|05:24 pm] |
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| | i dont care | ] |
If anyone has had the privaledge to go to fat-pie.com and watch some of the cartoons you would be aware of how disturbingly funny they are (of course unless your not that type of person i guess)
i thought that this was a wonderful response to a pointless matter....
read the first mail entry and then listen to his response. i give him a 10.
http://www.fat-pie.com/mailbag.htm |
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| o dear |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|04:00 pm] |
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| | blood for blood | ] |
me and blais o dear
Notcominbackdown: (name that was here will not be added) is really boring to talk to
LiLxBlaze: hmm probally
Notcominbackdown: no he really is
Notcominbackdown: its like talking to a well that just echos back slightly different shorter answers
LiLxBlaze: cool
Notcominbackdown: heh i thought that was kinda witty
Notcominbackdown: guess not tho
LiLxBlaze: did you mean wall?
Notcominbackdown: no well , you know the deep things that echo
LiLxBlaze: you should just thow a penny at him, make a wish, and walk away
Notcominbackdown: you have to outwit me u beast
LiLxBlaze: haha
LiLxBlaze: its my speciality
Notcominbackdown: arg |
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| hmmm... |
[Nov. 29th, 2004|10:05 am] |
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| | le tigre | ] |
That is different... |
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| mixed |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|12:21 pm] |
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| | i want to listen to Blood for Blood but my comp wont let me | ] |
I have never been so annoyed, confused, frustrated, sad, tired, aggravated, figgity... gahh everything, before ever. i just want to go away with Andy right now and relax and say screw it to the next 2 exams i have today and tomorrow. i wanna hang out with my friends and see everyone again and just have good old times like before college. just think, i only have 5 1/2 years left!
ARGGGG! |
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| not a long entry |
[Nov. 17th, 2004|11:30 pm] |
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| | flogging molly | ] |
I dont really feel like updating much so im going to keep this pretty short
i went to amherst last weekend and it was a ball, i feel like a got closer to becky and yanie and they were both really cool to hang out with, the only bad thing was taking care of blais while she vomitted profusely down the ENTIRE hallway towards the bathroom. I am proud of myself that i did not get sick and i was drinking vodka which i almost always get sick off of and plus watchin blais vomit didnt make me either. so that was cool.
i havent been seeing andy much lately and its very sad. we just dont have any alone time together and when we do we are usually drunk and going to bed or hungover and around his house. i just want to go out to eat with him and hold him and hug him and just have a good night with just him. but that barely seems to happen anymore. not that im not having a good time, but i really miss that. im not gonna get to see him much this weekend due to my cousins baby shower and then me and her sister (my other cousin) are gonna go out after and party together. last time we did that it was a great time and im looking forward to it. i know now im thinking about saying some other time so i can see andy but im sure once im out with her ill be happy about it and it all will be ok. i just hate feeling this way. i dont see him during the week anymore and if i do its for about and hour. i miss him... im gonna be with him next week for 3 days and 2 nights with his family in marthas vineyard so that will be good, except we wont have a car to go anywhere and its with family. but any time i can get with him should be appreciated because its kinda rare now.
on a totally different note i might be joining a frat... yes a frat and not a sorority. my school does not have sororities just frats because frats are "professional" and sororities are not. and its all girls and maybe ill make even more closer friends and get better with school work.
just a thought
this isnt as short as i planned it to be.
i finally asked my roommate to work on her paper in the computer lab tomorrow morning so she doesnt wake me up like every other thurs and she said fine. i feel bad cause she doesnt have a laptop but she can deal.
ok later |
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| hmmm |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|01:21 pm] |
i just witnessed a truck turn right into a handicapped van and what was behind the truck but an ambulance... talk about quick responses. i thought that it was amusing, no one was hurt obviously but i had never seen that before. nothin like goin to school in the medical area of boston, u see everything.
off to bio to see how bad i failed the exam... |
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| i could be an asshole but naw |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|12:20 pm] |
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| | Bikini Kill "REBEL GIRL" | ] |
I could be the usual livejournal user and make all my entries friends only so people who hate me dont still check up on me but i really dont care that much. My life isnt really that interesting and i dont feel like arguing with people on livejournal when nothing could be said face to face in the first place to prevent the arguing from continuing. Anyways...
Im going to Marthas Vineyard for Thanksgiving, it should be interestin because ive never been there before. Andys rich uncle has a house there and Me Andy his mom and stepfather are staying in their "Guest House" to spend it with his family. (is it me or does EVERYONE have a rich uncle???) I believe we are coming back friday night so i have the whole weekend to see everyone else thats home. Andy and i decided that on weekends we can spend one night together but the other night has to include friends or us going our seperate ways for the night. We decided this a while ago but we always end up going out with everyone in the first place. Since Andys gotten to be friends with my friends it works out that way but i want some nights with just the friends too. i just end up feeling bad cause thats usually when Andy does nothin or he has something great to do... o well (great as in usually a party to drink at)
Anyways J-pi... you are the shit... thats just all i can really say about that
and blaze, let me know the next time you go to amherst cause i wanna go with you to visit becky and alanna. |
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| just thinking |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|12:13 pm] |
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| | still bikini kill and they still rule | ] |
I was just sittin at my computer thinking and i thought about old times...
like times that were a lot of fun but all the sudden ended, because of someone going to school a year before me and then me and everyone else going to school this past summer. I used to be really close with Sheila and Merette and to Sheila i either dont exist anymore or she couldnt give a shit if i did or not. i really have no idea what happened with that, she just didnt want to talk to me anymore and didnt want to give me the chance to work it out. I saw her a while ago and she was civil to me but obviously didnt care. And Merette and i used to be really close too. shes off at school and doing good considering i talked to her recently. but we arent nearly as close as we used to be. i mean hey i love the friends i have now dont ever think i dont, but i just dont know what happened with them. I know i started dating Andy and they kinda gave up on me, but everyone else didnt. i guess thats just how you find out who your real friends are in life. not that they werent real friends at one point in time, they just gave up on me, which is kinda understandable but not totally.
oh well,
just a thought
my roommate is so boring damnit
i just want to tell her "GET A LIFE!!!" |
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| i never do these things |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|12:11 pm] |
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| | Bikini Kill!! | ] |
Your Porn Star Name is: Sindee Slickbooty
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Wake tonight... thats depressing |
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| i just dont know |
[Nov. 1st, 2004|03:40 pm] |
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| | wonderwall | ] |
life just isnt fair sometimes...
how things could happen to one person in such a short amount of time and so abruptly is just... not fair, its not fair at all
im sorry adam... |
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| i dunno |
[Oct. 31st, 2004|02:05 pm] |
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| | pixies-video killed the radio star (cover) | ] |
anyone elses livejournal kinda screwy? it might just be me again but whatever...
ANYWAYS... Andy and i are back together as a trial to see if he can NEVER do what he did to me again. he promised to try and we both know how strong his promises are, im just wondering if i made the right decision. i need my guard up all over again and i dont know if i really want to have to do that again. we did have really great times together and i didnt think they would end that abruptly. but when it did happen i handled it much better then i thought i would and i kinda got myself almost used to the fact that i would be single, and thats ok... i just dont know anymore, it was nice holding him last night and having him there with me, he just kept on appologizing and we talked for a long time and just as i thought, its different between us, well at least it is for me.
he said hes gonna relax on his drinking and he gonna make it up to me for taking everything out on me. i dont know, i cant help but be a little confused |
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| i dont know what happened |
[Oct. 30th, 2004|11:07 am] |
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| | blood for blood | ] |
well i only got about an hour of sleep last night, im so tired but i just cant sleep anymore...
at least now i can spend weekends here or at home...
no more staying at andys
considering he broke up with me last night and i dont know why...
ive never felt so alone in my life...
it hurts a lot
ive got nothing left except school i guess, and my family, im gonna go call my mom
its all over
i know if i did that he wouldnt give me another chance, so i shouldnt give him one, he was drunk but people say the truth comes out when your drunk...
we were so happy an hour before....
why me? i just dont know anymore |
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